“The gods envy us. They envy us because we’re mortal, because any moment may be our last. Everything is more beautiful because we are doomed. You will never be lovelier than you are now. We will never be here again.”
~ Troy (2004)
Uncertainty is something I’ve never handled well; in fact, uncertainty is one of my biggest fears. However recently in the last month, life has taught me to embrace it with open arms, turning something uncomfortable and consuming into something powerful and beyond words. There is a peculiar beauty in uncertainty, something only a conscious mortal can truly comprehend; this revelation has given me a new found appreciation for the unknown.
I have and always will be a micro-manager. Controlling as many variables as possible gives me a sense of security, putting my fate in my own hands. Or at least that’s the illusion I perceived. But now, I have experienced a new side of life, and not in the traditional sense – as if I had embarked on a journey of discovery or a new period of life (such as parenthood). The side of life I am referring to is internal, accessible only when the correct key is presented at the correct time. The stars don’t always have to align; some of the best things come from out of the blue.